asal eyh everytime i try to do sumthing nice its just turn out to be as bad as it gets. Da thing about my concept of nice is simple, ur sincere of what u do and does not aspect anything in return.
I try to teach myself to be as sincere as possible of anything that i do simply because if anything goes wrong along the way I wouldnt get hurt as much. It seems to me that rite now i have done something nice (ofcoz from my view) but i end up getting angry at... I was like... What the F***!! See...
Dat for sure is an angry feelings... Da question is back from the start... Do I really sincere of my 1st actions? Or the person whose angry at me is to be the wrong doing... it is always easier to blame others from what to be unfavourable event... But that is something else...
In this situation, i make the call first... is it me to be blame? As a human being, i never would have thought of the how consequences would be like... as I remember.. I was fine from the first round untill entering the 2nd round.. But right now Im just plain mad.. I just dun noe what the basis of madness about but what I do noe right now is that I am mad of that particular thing that particular detail from the conversation...
Does that basis really matters?
I know no matter what actions that we take we have to be ready with any consequences that might turn out for us... but this one... c'monn.. bullshit... I noe my action are probably inappropriate but to reflect that kinda attitude to me? appropriate?
If u wanna be that kinda person who give people back the way U always did
then be my guess
Although that kinda respond that I got was really unpleasant but I just gonna take it as
who U really are.. Im not asking to change who U are.. Nonetheless, there always some loopholes for
some evolution and revelation what so ever to make ourselves to be a better than who we are rite
now..
I mean u can think like kid and at the same time be grown up
e.g.. u can have all the emotion that a kid have...
angry, happy, love, playful, enjoyable, dedicated in games, sad, useless, proud, comfortable, save, freedom, imaginations
being a grown is actually much simpler...
u noe how to take control every feeling from the above said... without over doing it
cause then u would be a control freak
I noe I try my best to be the person I wanna be and be moderately acceptable by people.. I telling u
it is one of the hardest task for mankind ALLAH had ever made for us.
C'mon give it some space.. there non much room for attitudes... give me some slack
take a break would ya..
