Hey, recently i have just finished a book called The Interpretation of Murder by Jed Rebenfeld. generally, i love the novel so much coz the outline and arrangement also the growth of characters in the novel have splendidly been fictionized, fantasized, brought to life into one's mind. one perfect word could describe it was brilliant. Well that novel i was talking about was given to me as a present by my beloved boyfriend which delightfully and generously understand how passionate i am about these kinda books.
The story was generally bout a psychologist, a Dr. which get tangled up i a love affair with his patient and found himself in the middle of solving a mystery of murder case and twisted mind of a criminal so as criminal to be. The most interesting part of the book is that it covers a lot of psychological manner of human being and how deep a seed of inception is buried to one mind till that one self doesnt even realize that they have a dark rival or an agony to have such vengeance that could drive one to absolute madness. The beauty of it is dat, that particular one could be anybody or even the most in control person u've ever known.
Another movie that closely related to those sick mind tale is shutter island which i've watched it like last year. great movie.. love it so much. Ah.. yes i remember another movie with the same actor... crap.. whats his name... leonardo dicaprio.. the movie is inception.. The most recent was The Black Swan witch i just watch it yesterday. I must say, that is yet another twisted movie which j'adore.
Those movie is hell of brainstorming. It feels like when u walk out of the theater hall u'll be thinking what and how much contribution it take to loose a grip of ur own mind. And when u wake up in the morning u'll be thinking is it possible those sick things happen to me. I love these kinda movie so much because it almost tells us the truth about how our mind works. See, there is dark and horrifying days that we just want an eraser and erase it off our memory or have the simple delete button.
Those memories that we have sumhow make us fell embarrassed about ourselves to ourselves. we just cant get enuff of not telling people about the skeleton inside the closet of our life until we juz have to take matters on our own hand and force ourselves to forget our own memories. Sumhow there are some who had successfully press the delete button and eliminates the memory. Either the turn to be entirely crazy like a deadly epidemic or bacteria breeding inside the brain attacking the person causing that person to have sick habits or being a zombi even (thats a metaphor... =D).
The nature of human instinct just simply survival even to own mind. Looking at a denial point of view, a person might think dat.. its crap and its not true. I'm not saying its entirely right but try to ask urself is there any and i mean any memory that u wished not to even remember it but sumhow it still lingered in ur mind sumwhat look like its teasing u telling u dat u make a fool outta urself... or simply talk behind a person's back to what u said for the sake of conversations or the ugly truth about the person u've been taliking about..(by right u noe actually, rationally and sumwhere deep inside ur heart ur sayin to urself there is no way that person is better than me or i no the right things better that u do or i want to tell the world about how bad u are, ur flaws and people wont notice my own dirty and embarrassing imperfections)... that's what im talking bout... its there right.. hehe =D
To me, embarrassment is one thing, denial is another thing... these two things cannot be in one room. it proves that it is so hard to have a sacred peace without any denial unless that ur insane.. according to my mum... its easy... sembahyang je... doa tenangkn hati, dirahmati, turunkn hidayah, bukakan pintu hati... it does work u noe.. its juz dat my rebellious mind tells me there must be an explanation beyond twisted and complex mind of a human being. logically, no wonder god make it in portion of two and each one of it so freakin tangled up. i am so right eh? haha
So find out ur hideout... ur beach... ur sky ur... ur retreat.. ur paradise... ur getaway.. ur heaven.. inside ur mind it'll help u not to seek therapist one day..
